Wednesday, May 14, 2008

Gay for gain....

You probably all know what "gay for pay" means, right? It's when a straight guy does gay porn for the money. (In straight porn, the guys are basically props and don't get paid much).

Well, a few days ago I was watching a biography of James Dean on TV and a friend from his back in the 1950s (I don;t know who she was but I recognized her face from TV) said that he would basically fag out for connected guys in the entertainment industry if it means getting ahead. She said he was bi.

I had never thought about the possibility of this before, not for guys anyway. I mean, I'm certainly bi-capable, but am also totally gay, and would never hazard a mackerel mustache for personal gain.

At the same time tho, bisexuality intrigues me. And I can;t help wondering... James Dean was only 24 years old when he died. What if he really was gay, but died before he fully realized it? Or what if he really was bi, and not just for personal gain?

If he was still alive he'd be 77... He only made three films (which I still need to see, btw) and made such an impact. No telling what he could have/would have done if he had more time.

In a time when all self-respecting homos are supposed to droll over Madonna and Mariah...fuck that horseshit, give me James Dean any day. I like him even more now.

Straight for gain? Not for me, haha. Except baby-making ;)

Thursday, May 8, 2008

A lizard in the sun...

That's what I've been lately, a lizard in the sun. I LOVE warm weather and I'd spend 24 hours a day outside if it were possible. Now that it's not Christmas, luscious or otherwise....

So what has happened?

The third week of April the little man Chas turned 2 and had a pimped out birthday. It's such a trip to witness every day how he is turning into a little person. I don't know if I will ever get over when he comes up to me and huge my leg. Totally adorable and makes me feel awesome no matter what kind of day I'm having.

Not that I can complain much at all lately. I actually had my birthday a little less than a week ago and it was a great time. Family, friends, everything, and no crazy drama, for once. Mike and I are the best we've ever been.


Jenn is preggers again and is due in August and it will be another boy, thank God, you all know I;d be lost with a girl ;) Taking suggestions for names, by the way.

Ya, it was when we were in Miami, and Jenn just came out with we should have another kid, and at first I thought she was kidding. But not kidding, haha. And now there is another bundle of awesomeness on the way. Who knew the homo would be a babymaker???. My sibs are still useless in that department.

But, AMAZINGLY, my sister isn;t such a huge mess anymore. She never went to rehab, but she's actually half ways trying to get her shit together, and I have my fingers crossed, bu7t get back to me in 6 months, right?

She got a few more DUIs and has some court dates coming up and I think all that has finally scared her into not being such a raging fuckwit. No, but seriously, I do hope she gets it together. She's gone off all of her meds, which she should have never been on in the first place and is going to therapy.

Business is still going well, maybe too well, and I'm thinking of opening up a real shop, but all that is still in the early stages. I don't know if it's worth doing, with the time commitment. we shall see.

Maybe I'll start writing in my blog again. I kind of forgot about it, and my days are pretty full right about now anyway, but I kind of like writing

And the next blog will be better, I promise, heheh