Gay for gain....

You probably all know what "gay for pay" means, right? It's when a straight guy does gay porn for the money. (In straight porn, the guys are basically props and don't get paid much).

Well, a few days ago I was watching a biography of James Dean on TV and a friend from his back in the 1950s (I don;t know who she was but I recognized her face from TV) said that he would basically fag out for connected guys in the entertainment industry if it means getting ahead. She said he was bi.

I had never thought about the possibility of this before, not for guys anyway. I mean, I'm certainly bi-capable, but am also totally gay, and would never hazard a mackerel mustache for personal gain.

At the same time tho, bisexuality intrigues me. And I can;t help wondering... James Dean was only 24 years old when he died. What if he really was gay, but died before he fully realized it? Or what if he really was bi, and not just for personal gain?

If he was still alive he'd be 77... He only made three films (which I still need to see, btw) and made such an impact. No telling what he could have/would have done if he had more time.

In a time when all self-respecting homos are supposed to droll over Madonna and Mariah...fuck that horseshit, give me James Dean any day. I like him even more now.

Straight for gain? Not for me, haha. Except baby-making ;)

A lizard in the sun...

That's what I've been lately, a lizard in the sun. I LOVE warm weather and I'd spend 24 hours a day outside if it were possible. Now that it's not Christmas, luscious or otherwise....

So what has happened?

The third week of April the little man Chas turned 2 and had a pimped out birthday. It's such a trip to witness every day how he is turning into a little person. I don't know if I will ever get over when he comes up to me and huge my leg. Totally adorable and makes me feel awesome no matter what kind of day I'm having.

Not that I can complain much at all lately. I actually had my birthday a little less than a week ago and it was a great time. Family, friends, everything, and no crazy drama, for once. Mike and I are the best we've ever been.

And, THE BIG NEWS???

Jenn is preggers again and is due in August and it will be another boy, thank God, you all know I;d be lost with a girl ;) Taking suggestions for names, by the way.

Ya, it was when we were in Miami, and Jenn just came out with we should have another kid, and at first I thought she was kidding. But not kidding, haha. And now there is another bundle of awesomeness on the way. Who knew the homo would be a babymaker???. My sibs are still useless in that department.

But, AMAZINGLY, my sister isn;t such a huge mess anymore. She never went to rehab, but she's actually half ways trying to get her shit together, and I have my fingers crossed, bu7t get back to me in 6 months, right?

She got a few more DUIs and has some court dates coming up and I think all that has finally scared her into not being such a raging fuckwit. No, but seriously, I do hope she gets it together. She's gone off all of her meds, which she should have never been on in the first place and is going to therapy.

Business is still going well, maybe too well, and I'm thinking of opening up a real shop, but all that is still in the early stages. I don't know if it's worth doing, with the time commitment. we shall see.

Maybe I'll start writing in my blog again. I kind of forgot about it, and my days are pretty full right about now anyway, but I kind of like writing

And the next blog will be better, I promise, heheh

Christmaslicious

Well, apparently it's been so long since I blogged that one of the handful that read it complained (haha), so here's a new blog, Gabe, heheh.

We finally put up a smaller version of our tree a few day ago (like 8ft instead of 14) which I actually really like because it takes a lot less time to put together. It's pretty and it puts me in the Christmas spirit more than I had been. Soon we will wrap some gifts and put them under the tree. Chas' stocking is hung too, next to mine and Mike's (yes, we do it too, heheh)

I've gotten MOST of my Christmas shopping done as well, but by this point I've abandoned the malls altogether in favor of the Internet (I love shopping in my underwear, heheh)

My cake business has really taken off as well and is keeping me busy during Christmas. I like it tho because if I didn;t have a million things going on I;d be bored. Plus, I've already found that I have some repeat customers, and we've met some really cool people.

I'm not sure what the plan is for Christmas yet. Drunkella is going to England (YAY! -- will leave Tuesday) so we get custody of her fat cats for two weeks, who I love her. Not sure about the logistics yet of dividing time between my fam and Mike's, but I know we will all get together at some point. *crosses fingers his dad isn't involved*

Wednesday we're having a surprise birthday for my sister in law with both fams involved (again, minus my sis who will be in England by then, YAY!) Yesterday was our Christmas with them, which suits me fine.

OH, and today our new TV was delivered. 65' Mitzubishi flat panel for the basement, it's fucken schweet (Danny, a little closer to Wendy's estimation of a 100' TV, fucken red=headed menace).

Not sure if I'll update before Christmas again or not. If not, Merry Christmas. Or happy eight-nights-of-shitty-gifts-Day if you'tr Jewish, haha, jk. I love Jews, yay.

Later

Babies!

OK, first of all, I fixed the link from the last blog. taht shit just makes me laugh, and there's something wrong with you if you don't laugh at that. i say again, WHO DANCES LIKE THAT????!, heheh

oh, and i'm not really digging the whole blog thing...but i might keep it to just have somewhere to poop out my thoughts.]

thursday night mike and i went out to dinner and the movie (enchanted - surprisingly fun), and it was really nice. we don;t go out just the two of us very often, what with chas, there's not a lot of chance to.

but there was a guy out buying tix at the theatre and he had three boys with him, probably the oldest was 10. each one looked like an older (or younger) version of the next and i noticed but didn;t comment and mike brushed my arm and said, "wouldn't it be nice if that was us someday?"...which just made me feel good.

i don;t know how many i'd want, but jenn started trying again recently. it would depend a lot on jenn, but i might want three. well, definitely i want a little BROTHER (or sister) for chas to play with so he's not an only child, but three seems better to me. i'm one of three....and both mike and jenn have big families.

chas will soon be 20 months, and if she conceived now and went full term, that would mean chas would be 2 years, 4 months-ish... that's a good spacing, right.

I just think it'd be cool to have a big family. and my shiftless sibs aren;t having any kids so i gotta pick up the slack ;-)

later

Daily Fun

Hilarious, bit who dances like that? LOL

http://www.glumbert.com/media/dancewhiteboy

*puff, puff*, get your own!

no, not weed. But I'm smoking cigarettes again. I do that....in times of stress, but it's uaully only a few and I throw out the pack... not this time. I forgot that I ENJOY smoking... I won;t keep doing it, I'll stop, but shit, I need one vice... I run and work out and dance every day... and I don;t drink any soda and barely eat any meat anymore... of course I drink, but i have my sister making me look like a saint in that respect, so i'm covered there.

but ya, smoking, newports, menthol.... mMmMmmMmMMmmMmMmM

i'm stressed about christmas, what to get mike? what to get a million other people, but really mike? cuz...i always get him something really good. i know it'll come to me...eventually. but i have impulse problems. i've been buying tons of shit online.

it might sound fucked up, but i think mike cheating on me was the best thing that could have happened to us... i'm not gonna get into why it happened (at least not in this blog), but it was good, because he fucking grew up in the year we were apart, and, more importantly, he let go of his hang ups about sex.

i'm not sure if it's his guilt, but i don;t really care why. i mean, i knew i was more experienced that mike, that was obvious, but when we got together i didn;t figure he'd be so unadventurous. but he's lossening up now, and allowing me to introduce him to new experiences.

don;t get me wrong, i'm ALWAYS respectful, i just think that sex doesn;t always have to be *sacred*, and not always between just two people. not that I'd ever cheat in a million years...i have too much self respect for that, and i'm not stupid either.

i'm sure i'll talk about that more later. Until then, let the pic stimulate your imagination.

I love shoes

Yesterday I went out with the friend from my last blog to celebrate her birthday and had so much fun...SHOPPING!

OK, first we wnt to Best Buy and I got the new jt dvd live from madison square garden which mike and i will totally whack to later. oh, and also an amy winehouse dvd, cuz you know that shit is gonna be funny.

then a NEW shoe store I didn;t even know existed! and found some cool new NB sneakers, and if you know me, you know I have a total sneaker fetish so I was crazy happy.

then to hollywood video where i bought some new vids (little children, the lives of others and two weeks).

then we went to the liquor store where we bought the essentials (mike's hard lime and mike's hard berry and some pina calada shit i never had any of).

then we went to cold stone creamery (which I'd never been to before), but if you don;t know it's this totally sinful ice cream place and chrissy bought a red velvet ice cream cake.

then we went back to her apartment and had cake and alcohol and watched hours of forensic files on court tv which was so lame but we fuigured out we both love it, and I had so much fun.

oh, and she has two pugs which she used to breed, but had them fixed. anyway, the female one was constantly humping the male one, which i couldn;t stop laughing at the entire night.

oh ya, and i forgot we went to nj where she grew up and she showed me around, i met her mom and step dad, who are hilarious, watching hgtv and bitching about the crappy design choices people make. and amazed i had never heard of ufc?? ultimate fighting something or other? does anyone know? anyway, they totally get off on it, her mom hilariously gave her shit because she wasnl;t wearing a coat (she's 29, haha)

anyway, great time, so fun.

then came home and found out that my sister had gotten drunk again and made a huge scene during Stomp, which her and my brother in law went to see. whatever, I mean I have no faith in her and am totally disgusted.

but so, a mostly good night.