Still blissed out....

TalkeI've been wanting to write a blog for a while but haven't had time or motivation till now...

Basically, a lot of good things have happened lately and I want to inform the blog elves! :)

First of all, the horrible mutant cold/sinus/phlegm/snot monster I had living inside me for the last forever it seems... is now dead. I killed it. And am feeling better.

Second, the day before yesterday Chaz came home from his Mom's and I finally got a munchkin hug which I was sorely missing. The next day Jensen followed and I got to see his cuteness mini-munchkin giggle. I have my boys home. Life is good.

Third, almost all my Christmas shopping is done, for real this time.

Fourth... Night before last, I was doing better but still feeling mad tired. I knew Cesar was coming over so I took a shower and passed out on the bed. He got here about 8 and end up waking me up and I was all out of it, hair all effed up every which way, looking all cracky (ok probably not that bad, but I remember being all dazed --- had been sleeping worse than normal).

Anyways, we were being snugglebunny cuddlewhores, and Cesar started rubbing my back which turned into a massage (and there was hot chocolate) which turned into a happy ending (really happy) which was promptly reciprocated.

And I was all *blissed out* frim the massage and tension relief and we just laid there talking.

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for him. And we've talked. Talked. And I think he's liking me too, well, I know he is.

And I had a dream last night.... Where *gasp* I told him I wanted him for Christmas....haha

Which is like, totally cheesetastic, and I'd never say that in real life.

But, apparently, my dreams are like, an episode of One Tree Hill or something...
(does that make me Lucas?)

But seriously...

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-B